nagging

I'm so sick of all those judgemental people around me..
Crazy people keep watching over my shoulder to make sure I'm getting things done or doing things right...
Superficial people that keep judging you for the way you are on the outside..
Jealous people for getting annoyed with you because you decide to not run in life, but walk in a more comfortable pace.
Fricking annoying people that promise you one thing, but back out the next moment, by completely ignoring you.....
Ignorant people who cant take any hints when they ask you something...

Ugh.. random things are on my mind..

If you've read my previous post.. just forget it.. she chickened out.. and the trip to Barcelona we had planned for next week? she decided to ignore me since the day after we agreed on going..! jeez.. whatever..

I typed in a name on Facebook search-thing.. someone from the past.. it actually got a hit................ i shouldn't get back into it though.. just forget i searched for that name.. bleh

My grandmother keeps cleaning up my room and even re-organising my entire room (she tried moving the entire bed to the other side of the room... i mean come on..)
I dont know where ANYTHING is right now, and it drives me insane.. argh. she takes random stuff from my room and puts it in the closet.. why? cuz she didn't like it in my room :S

No one thinks i can cook for myself, and take care of myself.. cuz they wont even give me enough space to prove myself.
Truth is.. i like to cook.. but how the hell am i going to let them know that, with THEYRE always cooking for me and making me to go their fricking homes to eat.. I KNOW its a nice thing, to have people look after you.. but turn it down just a notch!
Living with my grandmother and some other random lady, is slowly driving me crazy! I like my grandmother a lot.. seriously, i do.. i respect her really.. but she's starting to get on my nerves... asking me every day what time i get home from school.. phoning me every day where i am.. if i'll come home for dinner/go to my aunts to have dinner....
i know i can just tell them if I'm going out with friends, but.. i'm effing chinese, and its rude to say no to family and go out with your friends instead

Arghadfhawef i need to get out! my room consists of a bed, and a wardrobe and a night-stand.. i'm not over-exaggerating. I need a desk or something :S everything i do, like homework or stuff, i do it on my bed..... I dont like sitting in the living room. either my grandmother is there, or that random lady living here is there.. or both even.. watching tv/playing games on computer :S
when i sleep, i sleep with my laptop with me in bed.. (queen-sized bed.. thats the only nice thing here)

but still.. If i would get the chance to get my old appartment back... i would totally take it! my old, dirty, scary appartment, where I'm afraid of touching things, cuz they're gross.. At least there, we had 2 bedrooms, a kitchen, a livingroom a bathroom and a toilet all to ourselves! My brother and me! (ok and his friends, cuz they came over a lot..) but it was nice... I can still remember the first day there.. we worked SO hard at cleaning EVERYTHING!! (im kinda OCD with cleaning) and we layed down 2 matrasses on the floor, in the livingroom. We slept there for the first few weeks or so ^^ and i can still remember the nights where we didn't sleep at all.. where 4hours of sleep would get me through 30hours or being awake. When we went to bed at 09.00, cuz we were up all night having so much fun.. When I'd just wake up, not go to school, but get my guitar, and try playing it, for the ENTIRE day.. entire evening.. entire night!! no seriously.. it was so much fun.. especially when it was summer.. and my brother had his girlfriend.. we had such a nice time.. it was a sweet period in my life :) but i'll dedicate another post about that another time!

lol, i totally forgot what more i wanted to complain about after thinking about last year :P
ok. well. this post is long enough now.. still have to find a suiting picture for this :S hm

ok picture explanation: photo was taken at my old appartment with my phone. I drew the bamboos on my eh.. glass-board..? (whiteboard.. but from glass..? :P just hung it up on my wall and wrote down notes to myself on it with markers. notes. things i still had to do.. things not to forget.. other people writing random things on it :))