Ana Free, Porto concert

damnit.. x_X

If only I could fly.. or smuggle myself into Portugal before coming Saturday.. or could be rich!

- So the facts are these: Someone invited me to join her and some others to go to Ana's coming concert at Festival da Juventude in Vendas Novas, Portugal.. Of course my excitations started welling up, as I searched for the cheapest planetickets available! but of course everything is way too expensive, dangit.. -_-''
Cheapest I could find for a flight this last-minute, was at about 350 euros i think.. :S without having included any hotel-costs yet too =/

*sigh* you cannot imagine my frustration.. More than anything in the world at this moment, would I want to attend this coming concert and spend some quality time in Portugal.. Spend some cool cool times with the people I'd go to the concert with, meet Ana again, and eating some HEAVENLY Pasteis de Nata again.. T-T
I'd kill to go to Portugal again!! - ok i wouldn't actually kill.. but I'd be willing to push them really really hard! =O

On a sidenote, the above shown picture was taken by Martinha. (only know her first name :P)
Doesn't it look so professionally taken?! Like it's ripped right out of a magazine! :) Awesome.
Taken at the concert in Sala 114, in Porto, where she handed out mini-pasteis de nata!! for crying out loud!! :| argh
see my frustration?! God is throwing salt into my wounds.. Feel like I'm missing out on so many things just by living in this.. this... blaaaaa~

well, that's enough complaining for 1 day I think..
have my second driving-lesson tomorrow morning! kinda excited for it (and scared, lol.. he keeps telling me to speed up xD)
hmm.. driving-lesson is from 9 to 10, but I have a pretty important lecture from 10 to 12! :S so kinda bummed out that I won't make it to the lecture..
Because of the 1,5 - 2 hours of traveling time from my hometown to my university, I might even miss out on my Spanish class at 12.30, which is important also, cuz I can't miss too many classes (but i already did :$)

Anyways, I'm getting lazy lazy lazy..
Gotta jump into those massive books soon!
blablabla, Ciaoo~

caged in

I had a dream a few days back.
It basically showed me I was slowing down everyone around me.. myself as well.
Made me wonder if I did. I know I tend to slow myself down, when I can go faster in life. The slow road is easier and more comforting, and mostly more secure. Even though I know I'm younger than most around me at school, I still feel a pressure to do everything as quick as possible, and that my mind wants me to hurry the hell up with everything. No time or space for mistakes and I need to get to where I wanna be by tomorrow.
Im not receiving this pressure from my family-members though. They know it wouldn't work to pressurize someone, so it's not because of them.. On the inside, I think I want to accomplish things for myself. But when I soberly think it through, what's the purpose of all those accomplishments really? I still am who I am, and still act the way I do.. The things I accomplish are only superficial because in my current perspective, your accomplishments only impress those who don't know you. The ones that do, know who you are; they know how smart you are, how you act the way you do, and most importantly: they know the inner-side of you.

Looking at my situation, I don't think anyone actively knows the real me. I open up easily towards people I don't really know and people who I'll probably never see again, because I know I won't have to act up to their expectations. There won't be a single pressure.. I get to be me. and not care about the results of being that.

I do feel the eyes that keep monitoring me though. Unconscious as it may be, they hope for early succes, no mistakes, no flaws and no delays. Maybe those eyes are my own, maybe they're from others, but the pressure has always been there.
Partly, that's why I want to go abroad. Preferably alone and - I realise that now- without anyone that knows the current me.
this is gonna sound so cheesy: 'to see if I can get to know the real me.'

ew.

I just want an opportunity to see if I can be who I wanna be

Bull's lucky balls?!

Picture was taken in Milan, at Galleria Vittorio Emanuele.
What we didn't know then, was that you were supposed to put your heel in it, and spin around a few times.. brings you lots of luck apparently..
darn, if only I'd have known sooner! :(

I remember my little brother asking me what this image meant.. I actually stood there stunned.. I actually thought someone had stolen the bull's testicles.. How the hell could I know that you were supposed to shuv your foot in it, and twist around in it O.o
in my humble opinion, it's one of the weirdest ways to gain luck.. But who knows, it might have a really interesting story behind it..

anyway,, If anyone who reads this should ever visit Milan, and Galleria Vittorio Emanuele.. Go ahead and do a little pirouette in the bull's you-know-what! :)

Christmas-dessert of 2007

I'm in the mood for Christmas!
Great atmostphere, awesome food, and quality time with the family!

Picture above was the Christmas-dessert for 2007 in our restaurant.. Chocolat, vanilla and chocolate-sauce.. (there was an alternative for the non-chocolate customers: Strawberry and Vanilla, with some fruit and stawberry-sauce)
I'm just trying to come up with a new dessert for this year...

OOH! Thanksgiving.. damn, it's a shame we don't have that in the Netherlands! O.o I'll put that on my life-list as well.. to have a true thanksgiving-dinner.. with a big-ass turkey and everything ^^

..I like food too much -.-

Trying to live a healthier life?

Ahh, my latest favorite food/snack/breakfast/whatever.
yoghurt with fruit.. lots of fruit.
- it's easy, healthy, and yummy!
(could fit right into a commercial-ad)
"containing kiwi, orange, banana, and strawberries!"
(picture quality is kinda sucky.. taken with a phone-camera)

aanyway. not much to report here..
haha slept till 16.30 today =.= first decent night-sleep since Milan..

and I started taking driving-lessons.. about time! hehe
stupid thing though,, first 6 hours are simulator-lessons :S It's like a friggin video-game! You're supposed to sit in the simulator, and everything you see is all animated. (I kinda hit a pole when I was driving in that thing, but there was no reaction at all.. like i drove straight through it; If only it were like that in reallife too :P)

Anyway, two more blocks in the stupid simulator which will be on monday and friday, and then.. AAHH the real driving-lessons begin! yeasshh ^^

ahh, not much left to say.. off to watch some Scrubs then :P
x

Milan - Orio al Serio Aeroporto [approx. 08.30]

I went to visit Milan on Wednesday 15th of October 2008.. After having visited London and Lisbon not too long ago, where I had the greatest time, I had my hopes pretty high for Milan too I guess. I might have expected too much from it though, or maybe we just didn't visit the right places :P cuz it was kind of a disappointment..
In my opinion, nothing will ever compare with London and Lisbon anymore.. hehe those 2 trips were amazing!
But it's always fun to walk around in an unfamiliar city and just wander around, wasting time. Plan to do it more often!

It was fun though! According to the SonyEriccson's pedometer, we've took more than 23.000 Milan-steps and god, could I feel it at the end of the day! -.-
we went to a FNAC-store, and I sat down in a sofa that was comfortable as hell!! (those sofa's they put in front of one of their big-ass tv's.. genius ^^)
anyway,, kinda fell asleep in one of them! :$ haha luckily I had my mom already sitting next to me,, imagine me waking up next to a random Italian guy all of a sudden 0_0 bwaha

Besides the most obvious thing -Shopping- we ate Italian food (yummy :)), drank plenty of espresso's to survive the 24 hours in Milan, and ate Italian ice-cream ^^ it was good.. :) but tiring as hell!