its the little things

I like how the little things in life can change your mood, or even your entire day..

A stranger on the street giving you a sweet smile.
Someone on the train passing you a kind look.
Bumping into someone and just saying hi.
The till-lady (if thats what its called) being nice to you.
The way someone can pronounce your name.. or just the fact alone that someone thinks of you enough to just mention your name!

Anything.. a look, a smile, a wink (i love winks.. they make me go mellow inside :P).

Its the little things that dont seem important at first, and are just the normal routine things for someone else. But in the end, these are the things that determine my mood and determine my day..

is it always THIS sunny in September??

..would you look at how bright that is :) aww
I did not take many pictures in Lisbon.. but the ones I did take show how beautiful the weather was! I dont look at those pictures often, cuz I'll just find myself wanting to go back so badly, i just want to go to ryanair, and book a flight asap.

February-trip to Portugal is off.. March trip to Portugal is off.. maybe i should be more certain that I have TIME to go, before planning the trip =/

mmm.. next try will be April.. and if that wont work, i'll have to wait till July or something :( and then, no more postponing.. i swear i WILL go!!!! -.-

hmm what else did i wanna mention... =/
something about me being a hypocrit.. and a bunch of other stuff about me...
speaking of which, am i self-centered? 0_0 errr....
i dunno. i know a bunch of stuff about myself which are negative.. but i cant find anything really positive about myself :S nor can i find something in which i'm pretty good/really good... =/ isn't it about time to know what talents i do or do not have? i honestly still have no clue. no talent whatsoever... sure i have hobbies, but i dont really excell in any of those things.. just pretty mediocre..
the International Business and Management Studies, i follow now..? i'd say my level of talent in that one, overall, is BELOW mediocre even.. a lot of things dont even interest me at all... like the modules Logistics, Research Methods, Finance, etc.. and as for the modules i AM interested in, i suck pretty badly at Economics, Organisational Behaviour, Marketing, etc.. i dunno.. maybe its just too much theory that we have to study.. to much reading.. i think i'd be much more able to memorize things when there are enthusiastic lecturers teaching us.. the teachers we have now.. they're boring. gosh..

but eh.. that's not what i wanted to talk about :S
something about valentine's day? nope, there's nothing to tell really..

..i'll go to bed now and try to finish this tomorrow..
ohyea. i'm going to apply at a fitness-club i think xD gotta work on my health. bwaha, i exercise waaaayyyyy too little these days! i used to ride my bike 15km per schoolday (about 7km to school, and 7km back). at least that was SOME exercise. all i do now, at MOST, is walk alot in town.... :S and i take the trams to uni... hmm. so yea! only solution i guess, is a fitness-club :P

*ok bed now.
i always forget whats on my mind :S kinda annoying sometimes, having a memory like a.. like a... eh.. having a memory like..... i dunno.. something that leaks...? =/

everytime when i finish typing here, i look at what picture i'm uploading with it, and i'm like ohyea... O.o i totally forgot about that.......?

...eh
..random..
..and lame.
..=/ *stops now*
.bla.

i'll continue to travel.
i'll be reluctant to come back home.
i'll stay out more often.
i'll use up my money.
i'll drop out of school.
i'll waste my life.
i'll throw it all away.

what the eff would they do.. whadda they want from me..

just watch me...

i'd leave this place now if i could

A: MAN airport; B: Manchester; C: Newton-Le-Willows; D: Leigh

Ugh, cant believe i forgot to mention the whole reason i uploaded the pervious post.. I just wanted to share what random things i brought back from Manchester.. Cuz I always bring back random stuff from places I've been to. i'll bring back anything :)

Ok. I have a bottle of water of course! actually.. i brought back 2. I always taste the bottled mineral water in foreign countries.. just to see where it has the best mineral water :P i like water, lol
For your information, Portugal definitely has the best water I've everdrunk so far ^^ Luso and eh.. another brand.. cant remember the name :(
Anyways, number two on my water-list is the Dutch Spa.. very nice :D so much better than Evian, or.. or omg, disgusting Vitell!! ewww.. vitell is gross. i wouldn't buy that even if i was thirsty as hell! it makes me nauseous.

Anyways. yea. 2 bottles of water. 2 plastic bags :P (Waterstones and eh, Currys? :S). I have a newspaper (Manchester evening news), I bought the book Addition [Toni Jordan] in Manchester, and also Mathilda [Roald Dahl] for my lil sister and for my lil brother some book called '100 Things you should know; and ssome you shouldn't' (or SOMETHING along those lines.. i dunno)
Ehm, I have my boardingpasses of course :) some leaflet kinda thingy from Arndale. A train ticket. what else what else..
Ahh the candy!! Rowntrees :) I bought like 6 eh. things.. rolls?? apparently way too little, cuz we already finished it pretty quickly.. :(
ahwell.. and ohyea. all the receipts of the things i bought as well :) (which wasnt much though..) didn't go out much, but anyways..

On a different note.. God I love how some people pronounce my name! pfff.. "Claaaaaaudiaaa"!! (imagine the Italian pronounciation.. only from a frenchman :P lol)
And i should really find out when u give someone 2 or 3 kisses on the cheek, when greeting eachother.. I've messed up like 3-4 times nowxD *sigh*
i'm guessing its normal to give another 2 kisses in france spain and portugal? Dont know about Italy though. I was being akward today. hehe
I should stop being so akward though O.o it just makes others feel akward as well, and it ends up in all of us, just standing there akwardly................. hahaha!

Anyways.. yea.. eh.. never thought i'd say this. but English sucks :S English people shouldn't be allowed to butcher my name by saying "Clohdia" ...ewwww please...!! >.<
that's so terrible -.- I'd much rather have it the french/italian/spanish/portuguese, whatever way.. just sounds so awesome ^^ hihi

ok i should sleep. its 5.17 am...

A: MAN airport; B: Manchester; C: Newton-Le-Willows; D: Leigh

chronologically:
[ Wouw : Brussels Charleroi : Manchester Airport : MAN Picadilly : MAN Oxford Rd : Newton-Le-Willows *oops!* : MAN Oxford Rd : MAN Picadilly : Arndale : Leigh ]
[ Leigh : Manchester Airport : Brussels Charleroi : Brussels Midi : Roosendaal : Wouw ]


i probably didnt do enough that day. but that's ok.. it was still a trip to remember!
i probably didn't show it.. but it was fun for me! granted, i am someone that's easily amused.
i probably should've talked more as well.. but new environment, people with hard-to-understand accents. english being their first language.. i find it difficult to forget my insecurities and to just blab around in a language that's my second, or third even.

Definitely realised i still havent improved that greatly in English speaking. i'm fine in reading, writing, listening.. (as far as I know, that is!). But i dont know how to get over my insecurities when talking in English to someone whose level is unquestionably superior to mine.

I dont know if I a was a nuisance to them, in any way.. i tried not to be a bother. And i should've eaten more probably. dont know what was bothering me that day.. I normally eat way more.. I might've been hungry, but just couldn't bring myself to put things in my mouth, chew it, and swallow it... i tried hard though.. =/ maybe from exhaustion/stress that day? all the travelling on my own.. i had so little to eat that day, cuz when i'm on my own, i eat when i WANT to, which sometimes ends up in me barely eating anything at all.

but that's not the point. Manchester was good. it was nice. I really did like going to England again! just a pity i didn't really get to SEE manchester though. so i can't tell if its a nice city or not..

but still, its england! England's cool :) My wallet is still full of pounds, and i still dont feel like taking them out.
The section that keeps all the coins, is full of a mixture between pounds, confusing pences/pennies and normal sense-making euros.

I cant say i didn't feel glad to get back in Brussels where they can speak Dutch, and i could listen to, and understand Dutch/Belgian people without any effort..
I still spoke English to everyone I had to talk to though.. I just didn't feel like speaking Dutch just yet.. so I just pretended not to be from around here! (that's the awesome part about international places like airports and big train stations.. No one knows where you're from, so you can just pretend you speak English or something. They wont know).

The strange part.. which was different from my other trip, which was to London.. was that when I came back to the Netherlands, I loathed Dutch cuz it was so nice in London, to have everyone around you speak English etc.. Dutch suddenly sounded so foreign and disgusting (i dont mean that foreign=disgusting :S i just mean, disgusting.. and a little bit foreign.. those two are not related to eachother! :P)
anyways. The strange thing is.. when i got back from Manchester, I didn't loathe Dutch at all.. i felt kinda relieved actually... i dont know, maybe its because of the accent i was hearing in Manchester.. It confused me sometimes.. there IS a different accent in Manchester right..?

ahahaha ok, there is.. watching it on YT right now xD

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KH_kOjsXakM&feature=related

anyways. im out i think. I have an exam in less than 3 hours. and haven't even started studying yet=/ *flashback to last year* hehe.