Do you ever look back and see how stupid you have been sometimes? Those missed opportunities, the things you should've left alone and all your other regrets in life..
When looking back on my highschool-period,
i think a lot of people just took me for granted. Looking back on it, i think i might've been wanting to please everyone too much.
I always had chewing gum with me, in case someone asked. I bought candy. I was always the one that was willing to borrow classmates money. Even to the boys you know you couldn't and shouldn't trust :p
I constantly helped this one guy out with his homework, checking his essays etc in the middle of the night. heck, i even printed the whole thing for him and put it in a frickin binder so he could hand it in the next morning!! just because he asked me..
Seriously.. what was i thinking. I helped him out too much, and i havent even spoken to him ONCE, after my graduation from highschool.. guess he didnt need me anymore
People have told me enough times already. I'm way too soft and I should learn to say no. But the thing is, once someone looks at me and asks me for a favor, they put on one of those sad "please help me out"-faces, i cant imagine anyone saying no to that! ..how?!?
Worst thing is though, after i helped them out and they walk off, i actually feel good about myself.
Untill 5years later when i look back at that particular situation and i notice that a lot of them just walked off without even feeling grateful and not even realizing that i took the effort and made time just for them to help them out.
I know i'm soft and i know i wont be able to change that. I also know that some people just wont be as grateful as you'd like them to be. Oh well. Nothing we can do about that either.. that's just the way life goes, as will it continue to go..
Dont get me wrong, I dont hold any grudges! cuz i believe in Karma (or at least, i WANNA believe in it).
All i'm doing here is.. sharing stories.. and Passing Time
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Aaaand this is the kind of people that I love.
ReplyDeleteYou just did/do all this kind of things because you want to believe that the others would do something for you too (We are really believers aren´t we? ahah)
I bet that in the moment that someone asked you something you never thought...oh I´ll receive something back...just a "thank you".
"...kindness does not mean you are weak, but it is the bravest form of strength and acceptance"(...)
Be kind, be Claudia.
Karma will pay us later ;)
aww, thank you for your sweet comment andre!
ReplyDeletethat quote is beautiful and so inspiring too :) karma karma karma, i hope this works! haha