clouded situation

.. desperately clinging on to hope i guess

doesn't everyone struggle in life? Desperately trying to clasp onto the things that we want or have, in fear of losing it.. I'm talking about broken hearts, things we lose, or people even..
Your love for a person, your love for a thing, or your love for life; I think we all keep struggling in the fight of holding on to those valued things..
If not experiencing these fights in our own lives, we always see them happening somewhere around us -mostly everywhere around us- to the people next to us...

kinda dealing with a family situation right now.. Well.. the situation hasn't really started yet, but it's about to.. just giving it some thought, and trying to keep my thoughts as positive as possible about it...
blabla.. anyways..

On a somewhat brighter topic, I had a pretty funny dream a while back! well not funny necessarily, but pretty cool if it were reality (A) and.. weird =/
[Okay, since this was a few days ago, I might not portrait the situation as accurate as when it was still fresh in my mind.. but here's the dream:]

* after-EDIT: I decided to give you a summary of my dream.. cuz it was getting SO long.. and weird for you to read too, when you don't really know me in person :P

So apparently I found a secret (free!) short-cut to Portugal!! (god if only such a thing were possible in reality!! ;)) In my dream I climbed onto the rooftops here in NL.. KEPT ON WALKING, and eventually (after some dangerous jumping-over-open-parts and narrow-parts-to-walk-over O.o), there'd be a steep white old concrete stairway that I'd descent, and arrive in Porugal! just like that :P
anyway, found Ana Free's house there, won a brown bracelet from her (eh.. yea, don't ask :P) Ate spaghetti in my dream as well.. and even got hired in that same Italian restaurant to help out with waiting! O.o haha it was weird.. *sigh*

actually, compared to my other dreams, on a craziness-scale of 1-10 this was about a 3 probably.. it was nothing really, haha I always have the WEIRDEST dreams!! you can't imagine,, I even had a dream where I was a fugutive with Will Smith, being chased by the SWAT-team and dozens of police-cars and helicopters..... so much action in that dream :D so cool; I was driving too! And Will Smith was screaming!

...This is why i don't believe in the "dreams have a deeper meaning"-crap :p

ahh.. such a lame-ass rant about.. nothing.